Captivating

Let this take hold

I’ve been thinking about this blog for two months, but haven’t found the right moment to share what’s been going on in my mind. But, in an effort to process all that I’ve been shown, and with hope to remember it; I must start somewhere. So let me begin.

About 3 months ago, I began reading “Captivating.” It’s basically “Wild at Heart” for women. I was enthralled by what lied in those pages for me. Suddenly, my quiet times became a new wonder to me; I experienced healing, and spiritual breakthroughs, and most importantly, appreciation of self.

Anyone who knows me knows that I’m a woman who loves relationships. I’m not talking romantic relationships, but relationship in general. I am most happy, and most alive when I am relating to others. I am not saying that I am always Christ-like in all my relationships, but it’s in these relationships that I find I can best reveal the heart of Christ. One important fact discussed in the book was that Christ is relational to His core. I know that we’re shown this often in church, but it never sank in with me until I realized that who I am as a woman is in direct relationship to who Christ is in me. I too, was made in His image. My heart longs for deep relationships, because; guess what-so does He. Whoa. I felt vindicated.

One other thing that I wanted to touch on, briefly, is the beauty of God. I have always struggled in this area-to recognize my own particular beauty, but the beauty of God was always known to me. The bible says that the rocks will cry out the glory of God if the people won’t. His beauty is before me in everything, literally everything that I see, and come into contact with on a daily basis. I have the most beautiful office in my building and I am able to look out my window on any given day and see: children at play, storm clouds, lush green landscaping, life, growth. I’ve always felt surrounded by His beauty, but I rarely felt that I encompassed it. Though this fault of mine is directly related to a deep wound that I received, accepting beauty today, knowing that I’m a part, no-the crown of creation, is difficult because my enemy hates, absolutely abhors, beauty. This is why women have it so bad when it comes to this area, we’ve learned to believe that we are the worst mistake because we were the first deceived; but it was because of our beauty, that our enemy hunted us down. We pose such a deep threat to him. I am significant, I am made of Christ, I am beautiful.

There is more to say, and it will come…

posted by CarGate @ 3:28 PM